a few more interviews scheduled

well, as i was checking my email, i seen that a hotel in minnetonka replied to an application of mine and are requesting an in-person interview. so i scheduled that for tomorrow at 3 and i scheduled another phone interview for an office assistant job next monday. my skills are pretty broad- so that gives me options for jobs i'm actually qualified to work. YES amanda.. i DO have skills other than mindlessly driving my stupid wheelchair (which i don't even own anymore) to the overrated waste of space known as courage kenny. if they can be insulting so they intentionally underestimate my ability after ALL the time i wasted there- WHY CAN'T I?! GIVE 'EM A TASTE OF THEIR OWN MEDICINE FOR STUNTING MY PROGRESSION IN REHAB. i was talking to my job coach on the phone today about the interview that costco scheduled saying they were requesting an in-person interview with me but i wasn't sure if that was the kind of job i wanted to work. she said, "well.. you won't know until you find out during the interview!" so i scheduled an in-person interview with them as well- i think it's in two weeks. it's on my calendar and i don't feel like looking. i just want another job where i can get more time working CONSTRUCTIVELY without being told i can't do things or people showing fake concern about me working for whatever reason. MIND YOUR DAMN BUSINESS. i have a newsflash for certain family members who don't want me to be constructive and successful because they can't handle seeing someone who was in worse condition than them ACTUALLY doing something with their lives that they can't falsely take credit for. that's also a major reason why i don't wanna live in this state. everyone in this damn state assumes i'm a handicapped idiot who's only capable of going to courage kenny where they don't help me since i don't have advocacy to stroke their dicks and make them look good to other people. so my family is kinda to blame for the LACK of support i've received all my life (with exception to joe but i don't feel right putting it all on him especially since i only remember meeting him for the first time back when i lived in burnsville). it's easier for them to assume i'm not capable of anything other than being a handicap rehab. institute pawn and since i don't complain a lot (i complain but i'm just telling the truth)- they can tell people whatever the hell they want about me and no one questions it because i'm stupid because i ran away from home when they think i didn't have a reason for it but being rambunctious and irresponsible. so anyone who ignores this shit is just gaslighting me. i'm sure my psychologist understands why i wanna move and this state is doing NOTHING for my mental health.. BUT THAT'S THE POINT OF KEEPING ME HERE- AMANDA AND THE REST OF MY FAMILY (EXCEPT JOE)! SO I CAN BE AS MISERABLE AS ALL OF YOU! WHAT MAKES ME THINK I CAN ACTUALLY MOVE FROM HERE?! *GASPS* SOMETHING HAS TO BE WRONG WITH ME!.. EVEN AFTER THE MANY VISITS TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM BECAUSE OF MY IRREGULAR HEART BEAT WHEN I LIVED IN BURNSVILLE IN PARTICULAR. my heart was beating irregularly and fluttering because i was so unhappy and IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN. THAT'S BECAUSE I'M NEVER RETURNING BACK IN MY LIVING ARRANGEMENT PROGRESSION. YES.. IT WAS THAT BAD. my grandparents did their best to make my life better and now that they're both gone- i see absolutely NO reason to stunt my living situation progression. THIS IS MY LIFE. MIND YOUR BUSINESS. I'M SURE THE WORLD ISN'T GONNA END IF I MOVE TO THE EAST COAST.